Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Ponderous and mulling over..
Am i having an identitly crisis now?
WHy do i keep questioning my own decions and views?
Why question and berate myself when i know fully well what my capabilities are?
Is today's performance a preview of my inadequacy or a foreshadowing of many more such episodes to come?
Or should i be in denial,consoling myself by saying that it was merely a case of the jitterbugs seeing that its the first time? HMM..BULLSHIT.
"Aiya Ming, dont worry la. First time only. Don worry. Everyone also liddat.."
yeah..how i wish. If only i dont set such high standards for myself.
Berating myself seems the best option right now. But then again the question that rises is am i being harsh on myself. Bwargh.Seems to me its yes.
I'm 18 going on 19. Shouldn't i have MYSELF figured out by now? Obviously i havent..or i wouldnt be in this predicament now would i?
Posted at 12:39 am by ming2
