You know that moment where something hits you on the head and you just bowl over in rage at the fact that it happened?
Well im at this point of my life right now.
Theres a restrained anger in me that will just erupt if you even nudge at me.
So dont try.
I've had enough of being the goody two shoes every single person believes me to me.
I am not.Never will be. Accept that fact.I'm a normal teenager *yes im 19.quit asking*. Boring i may be sometimes,but thats all part of being normal stoopid.
I'd rather as much throw things at you right now than having to suffer in silence.
Suffering or for that fact DOING ANYTHING IN SILENCE has never been something that ive been good at.Silence does not become me.Neither does being a subservient mannequin all dolled up for display and to be mauled into becoming one of your next generation wannabes.Nah huh woman! Not me.
I'd rather defy you and get lost. Isnt that what you wanted?
I'm tired of you making me cry when all i want to do right now is make you cry.
I'd rather be living alone.A solitary life without you.hallelujah.
I'm tired of keeping my anger all walled in and out.
Someone once told me that crying was God's gift for us to show our emotions.
So why cant i apply the same philosophy to anger? It's not a big sin to show anger.
So why the hell do you want me to keep it in when you oh-so-blatantly shout yours for the world to see?
You're a hypocrite and you know it.
I know ive passed the stage where you get screwy over your identity and all.
Well aside from the fact that there are still pms-ey moments where you doubt and drive yourself nuts in the process, i can say im satisfied.
So to get to this stage now where i feel rebellious and destructive is refreshing.
It's like the puberty cycle revisited.All over again.
Which was nice cos u had a nice scapegoat to take the blame- hormones.
Im not blaming hormones now though. I'm just blaming people.
A specific person to be exact.
I feel like cursing but obviously i cant.
MingChoi's sensorship commitee will never allow for profanities on her blog.
Her readership will deteoriate.
Not only that,but she will be condemned forever in the eyes of the world as never again being the goody two shoes that she is.
