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Sunday, October 30, 2005
After having endured one month,one week of Law studies in "Uni" , i'd like to say that things were rather different from what i expected. That is, academically wise. The rest of the baggage like people, momentum of studying, etc etc was as predicted and accepted.
From my deductions so far, i'd like to say that to be a lwayer is tough. To be a successful lawyer or one who has high aspirations in life,is even tougher. If you do aspire success ( of course the definition of succes being subjective to each person ) , you've got to start from your uni course.You need to plan even now for your future. And need i add that you've got to plan ruthlessly? And participate ruthlessly towards you goal. Participate and participate and participate.
One of your most important skills, * and i kid you not * is TALKING,TALKING AND TALKING. No matter how good you are in your books, without the gift of the gab,you are nothing in this arena. Participate in lectures,participate in the mooting society, participate in the lexicon,participate in the Law Debate 2006, participate participate participate.To ensure participation, we are "threatened" sweetly to think of our future CV's. Resumes and CV's are all i hear about whenever a lecturer promotes something. And grudgingly we all rush to participate because it is undeniable that in a course like law, proof of your skills is important. Another boon would be the prizes that comes with it ..scholarships, book prizes,chambering prizes with prestigious law firms like Shearn & Delamore, Zul Rafique etc etc.
All this is undeniably interesting and appealing,not to mention challenging-which makes it even more worth the while. But another fact that you cannot forget is that you have to be very independent and strong.In every aspect of your life (in this case,mine) be it emotionally,physically and mentally. So it will be tiring. Very tiring.The pressure added with the emo trauma i'll have to go through for my future will bring me down.
But i have one very very very large consolation.
At least when i am down and nobody's around, i will still have someone with me and that's my God. He will hold me in his arms be there for me and hide me in his wings and let me cry my heart out. :) So for that im grateful. For in Him,we can do anything! XD Well, im done summarizing all the major things that has happened in my week, and im through venting, so adieu peeps,till next week!
yourstrulyme! ;)
Posted at 12:34 am by ming2
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Saturday, October 29, 2005
Bouts of amnesia or forgetfullness
Do you know when sometimes life just passes you by and catches up with you so fast that you forget the very things that you think is important? Like your good friend's birthdays, promises made to your friends,even if it's petty promises and important things in people's life?
I guess thats what happened to me. Too many things happening in life to the point that you don't know whats happening and you don't know what your doing. Driving oneself to the point of exhaustion while doing so. I even forget to blog and write. One of the many passions in my life.
So..I'm really sorry. :) From the bottom of my heart. You guys know who you are.
So if i do any of that again, you have my permission to ask anything of me. Subject to a few clauses of course. ;)
Posted at 11:44 pm by ming2
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Friday, October 21, 2005
I've just realised that i enjoy intelligent people talk.
Not some incessant bimbotic crap i have to endure most of the time.
I guess thats what happens when you deprive yourself of liberalistic thinking and succumb to totally prejudiced opinions.
Cheers then,to Edna for giving me a whole new perception of pwetty girls. ;)
Posted at 5:00 am by ming2
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You know that moment where something hits you on the head and you just bowl over in rage at the fact that it happened?
Well im at this point of my life right now.
Theres a restrained anger in me that will just erupt if you even nudge at me.
So dont try.
I've had enough of being the goody two shoes every single person believes me to me.
I am not.Never will be. Accept that fact.I'm a normal teenager *yes im 19.quit asking*. Boring i may be sometimes,but thats all part of being normal stoopid.
I'd rather as much throw things at you right now than having to suffer in silence.
Suffering or for that fact DOING ANYTHING IN SILENCE has never been something that ive been good at.Silence does not become me.Neither does being a subservient mannequin all dolled up for display and to be mauled into becoming one of your next generation wannabes.Nah huh woman! Not me.
I'd rather defy you and get lost. Isnt that what you wanted?
I'm tired of you making me cry when all i want to do right now is make you cry.
I'd rather be living alone.A solitary life without you.hallelujah.
I'm tired of keeping my anger all walled in and out.
Someone once told me that crying was God's gift for us to show our emotions.
So why cant i apply the same philosophy to anger? It's not a big sin to show anger.
So why the hell do you want me to keep it in when you oh-so-blatantly shout yours for the world to see?
You're a hypocrite and you know it.
I know ive passed the stage where you get screwy over your identity and all.
Well aside from the fact that there are still pms-ey moments where you doubt and drive yourself nuts in the process, i can say im satisfied.
So to get to this stage now where i feel rebellious and destructive is refreshing.
It's like the puberty cycle revisited.All over again.
Which was nice cos u had a nice scapegoat to take the blame- hormones.
Im not blaming hormones now though. I'm just blaming people.
A specific person to be exact.
I feel like cursing but obviously i cant.
MingChoi's sensorship commitee will never allow for profanities on her blog.
Her readership will deteoriate.
Not only that,but she will be condemned forever in the eyes of the world as never again being the goody two shoes that she is.
Wait.Wasnt that the whole point to start of with?
Fuck you.
Posted at 4:38 am by ming2
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
It's a man eat man world out there and i dont think such a philosophy applies only to those in the rat race. It applies to everyone.
A friend told me today that we shouldnt show our weaknesses to the world, or we'll only be trampled over.Not that the thought has never occured to me before. It has. But the application didn't seem very important at that time because i was safely cocooned in a very protective shell of friendship. What naivete and innocence. :) Typical of me.
For now, i see things in a clearer perspective, where seeing things through a rose tinted glass gets you in trouble more often than not. Where being cynical,embittered and experienced comes naturally when faced with the "developing" world. Ironically, they "develop" in many areas ie,science,technology,economic progress,elevation of poverty. But the development doesnt seem to have touched moral values.On the contrary,it does seem that in that area, they are deterioating.
I sound like a moral enthusiast/preacher/idealist dont i ? :)
Posted at 6:57 am by ming2
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Saturday, October 15, 2005
I can truly well say that ive had the most relaxing weekend in over 4 months
( counting the 3 months ive had in NS and the one month since ive been back )
Apart from my now routine early morning jogs on Saturdays with James and Noelle as well as our weekly raids to the pasar pagi in Eng Ann for hokkien mee and my bread, my Saturday's been good. :D
Finally finished all my "homework" and all the stuff i needed accomplish before another week starts again.Although the reading up on cases and preps for lectures n tutorials aren't up to date yet,..hehe..frankly, im too tired to care now :P
Normally my weekends don't really feel like weekends but for today, ive gotten my brief respite and im grateful. Hehe. To the point that i can even blog!! *wheeee* ;)
So,armed with maggi mee and a promising DVD in my hand, i plopped myself in front of the tv for dinner ala cinema style.
Recommended movie for the month : Sisterhood of the travelling pants.
Also recommended for those reminiscing about our friends both in the past and the future. ;)
Up for a second movie soon .Yeeehhhaaaaa XD
Posted at 11:48 pm by ming2
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005
I really deserve a break.And thanks to my brother,who has so kindy gifted me with a cup of Sara Lee ice cream, i've managed to salvage whats left of my sanity and my awareness.Something that he normally doesnt do. Which makes all my frustrated and exasperated groans and screams tonight seem very useful indeed, for i think he wouldnt have offered me his beloved ice cream if i hadnt been so stressed. ;)
It's now a widespread assumption that ive actually deserted my blog. So for the record, this place is not haunted.Nor is it gonna be a cemetery for dead words anytime soon. You'll just see less of me here, and more of me in Taylor's library skulking through the tomes of Law Reports.
I have been seeing words,words,words,words,words,words 24/7, 7 days a week,day in day out for about nearly 4 weeks now. And im tired. My eyes now blur whenever i see any judgements made my oh-u-think-ur-so-smart-n witty judges who more often den not tend to be long winded. All made in English that doesn't really sound English,more like gibberish to me.Which takes me about at least 30 mins to digest.
i'm so sick of words to the extent that ive started to avoid all kinds of SERIOUS FICTION BOOKS.Im even avoiding Literature! Sorry Ms Anne.Shakespeare and Byron has to go down the ladder in my "TO Read Books". The only books you'll see me carrying nowadays apart from my law texts will be light fluff n chic lit.I need light reading. Thanks to Krish,ive got something to keep me in good humour.
So given that, i dont think you need to ask why ive been neglecting my blog. If you still dont,let me just show u in simplified text.
BLOG =WRITTEN WORDS
WRITTEN WORDS = KMC SEES EVERYDAY IN LAW TEXT'S
WHAT KMC SEES IN LAW TEXT'S = MAKES HER SLEEPY
WHAT MAKES HER SLEEPY = MAKES HER BORED
Like what one of my lecturer's said during the induction of my course:
"You are now law students.
You are expected to live law,eat law and breathe law"
Well obviously my life now revolves around law now isnt it? ;)
Sighs peeps. Toodles.yourstrulyme.
A'reverdeci.
Posted at 1:44 am by ming2
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Ponderous and mulling over..
Am i having an identitly crisis now?
WHy do i keep questioning my own decions and views?
Why question and berate myself when i know fully well what my capabilities are?
Is today's performance a preview of my inadequacy or a foreshadowing of many more such episodes to come?
Or should i be in denial,consoling myself by saying that it was merely a case of the jitterbugs seeing that its the first time? HMM..BULLSHIT.
"Aiya Ming, dont worry la. First time only. Don worry. Everyone also liddat.."
yeah..how i wish. If only i dont set such high standards for myself.
Berating myself seems the best option right now. But then again the question that rises is am i being harsh on myself. Bwargh.Seems to me its yes.
I'm 18 going on 19. Shouldn't i have MYSELF figured out by now? Obviously i havent..or i wouldnt be in this predicament now would i?
Posted at 12:39 am by ming2
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Sunday, October 02, 2005
Perhaps a bout of writing will help cure my melancholy.
Read in the papers about the Kelantan MB wanting to hold a "husband lullaby singing " competition. A competition to pick out the best husband lullabys that will be able to put them males to sleep.
The reason for this?
Because when the men come back their darling subservient wives will sing them sweet lullabies to put them to sleep so that in the morning they will feel refreshed and at peace. Riddikulus if i say so myself.
Well,leave the Kelantan MB and PAS to think up things like that. Things that eat up the more of the public's taxes. Lucky for you people that the 2006 budget didnt really increase consumer prices or not you'll have a revolt in the making.
And Bali was bombed again. What is wrong with human beings these days? Is the killing and needless slaughter of innocents the only thing on their minds? Ever thought of the sanctity of life you terrorists out there? Cowards who use religion as a shield to justify their acts.
..You know at this rate, id probably insult everything im gonna read in the papers or heard.. Maybe this isnt the appropriate place to vent afterall..
A'reverdeci.
Posted at 2:48 pm by ming2
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Friday, September 30, 2005
The first thing that i heard this morning was this :
" Bangun! Bangun! Pergi Sembahyang semua orang!!"
followed by a noise resounding repeatedly in the room.
"Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! "
Feeling slightly disorientated, i opened my sleepy eyelids and grumbled in my usual cranky morning way..
" Mum,what sembahyang?!!Not Malay la!!Crazy ar! My class only starts at 9 la!"
Reality hit when i fully opened my eyes and noticed that i was sharing my bed with Peng.
She was already awake and stared at me with laughter in her eyes as i groaned in realisation that i was not at HOME but back at camp.
Remember those blardy noisy bangs i mentioned was ringing through my groggy head?
Well it seemed my dear Cikgu Fieza who was in charge of waking up the trainees at 5 AM in the freaking morning had taken to banging the steel lockers in the dorm in the 3 weeks ive been back home.. The result? A throbbing pain in the head at 5 am.
I went back to Kem Setia Ikhlas and stayed overnight.
What did i feel? How did i endure it?
Everything can be summarised in words.
Nostalgic.Happy.Weird.
I just got back a few hours ago and i still have tons of work to do in prep for Criminal tmrw. So ill just leave you with a few pictures to satisfy ur lust for info about my life ;) hehehe LOL
Me and the Ketua Jurulatih who gave me a nickname which im all too famous for in my camp for Kump 3,Siri 2. We call him MISAI.No guessin where he got the name from. :)
My NS gang with Kj ( ketua jurulatih ) hehe. LR: Peng,CHing,KJ,me,Seow Yen. All mua Alpha Company gurls! *hugs peeps! although u most likely wont be visiting here ;) *
This time its the Chinese guys from my company ( Alpha ). These bunch of wackos are as crazy and ham sap as most of the guys i know. With the exception that they joke about in Mandarin and Cantonese. Funny and Fun bunch of ppl who kept me occupied during Kenegaraan classes. XD
Keong and Kenny. One's from Sungai Buloh and the other's from.....uh..i forgot. :P
This guy is a mic.Chinese Indian parentage.Stays in Serendah. Which explains the fact that he can speak good Mandarin and chinese dialects as well as Tamil but not English. BUt he's an extremely nice guy! In the terms of atheletics and physical sports he's the best there is in our camp! *looks delicious when he smiles too XD kekekek * ..sorry reverting to bimbo mode again. Gomen ne.
This woman plays the role of livewire in her company (Delta) akin to my role in my company. Hehe. She's famous for her bawdy jokes as well as her vivacious personality. heheh.
And this is the kawad/marching formation for the majlis penutup ( closing ceremony) today. It was very very nice! The best ive seen my NS mates perform! LOL. I heard that they had to endure 4 hours of marching under the sun everyday for the perfect synchronization.
Halfway through the march formation. Look at all their serious faces. Stern and grim.
Due to the hot sun, at least 3 of them fainted while marching,one of them being a guy. So u can imagine the colour of our skin when we come back to visit you guys. So ppl..quit calling me Malay. XD heheh if u think im a malay wait till u see them. They would b Indian. XD
* Disclaimer : Not intended to be a racist remark whatsoever.Only as a comparison to the tanness of skin. *
One's got to be careful nowadays of what we say. You can be sued left and right. Or worse,be put into jail.Ugh.Where's freedom of speech?
Another one.
And another one.The morning was spent marching for the viewing pleasure of Lee Lam Thye who was present during the closing ceremony . I found out that he reli has quite bad spoken BM. It was very evident in his 15 minute oh so boring-till-it-managed-to-make-ppl-sleep speech.
And this cikgu, still owes me one ice cream!! Where's my ice lolly cikgu mus!!
heheh.Look at my bengis face. hehehe
A fan dance for the viewing pleasure of many. The thing i want you to see isnt so apparent here..hmmmm..
OOOHHH. YES.Its much more clearer here. KEKEK. See any bald patches?
Thats Tan Sri Lee Lam Thye.
Disclaimer : Once again, i do not intend to insult anyone.Im merely making out an observation and pointing it out to everyone. XD hehe
Tan Sri again while walking out of camp.
A bunch of my crazy friends throwing their berets up in the air after the departure of Lee Lam Thye and the closing ceremony.Look at them. hehe .its as if their graduating!!You cant reli see the berets cos they are suspended in the air but u can see half of the beret on the left hand corner of this picture. See it? Hehe. That guy was lucky. Most of their berets all landed in the roof and never came down after being thrown. HEHE. Them boys got a severe thrashing after that.
Ill just end with a few pictures on the camp facilities. bUg bye ppeeps.
In case you havent already guessed,this is the wobbyly bridge and long flight of stairs we had to cross to get to our wirawati's dorm which is situated on the peak of the hill. XD
Posted at 1:52 am by ming2
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