I guess it's never easy no matter how old you get. It's just never easy to listen to things you never thought would be said about you.

I guess in the end, it all comes down to what you think is right and what you think is wrong. And whose opinion you hold truer and dearer. And whose opinions count.

As long as i'm happy and comfortable with who i am.. I don't need to be accountable to everyone.

Perfection is in the eyes of the beholder after all..

Thanks Do and Nice :)

einstein really is a genius.we really cant be understood

lovealwis, me.

It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull

Everyone’s smiling, they’re smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can’t understand
Everything is blue

Can you hear me out there?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I’m gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can’t be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I’m lost in a deep winter sleep
I can’t seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me

I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes

But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear

Anyone out there hear me now?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Kiss my lips
and maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can’t be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will

=OLIVIA,winter sleep=

I want to live in a world of peace
Without conflict, like the one I’ve seen in my dreams
I just can’t keep it inside
I’ve gotta say what I wanna say
The bus stop at twilight, on the way home
Saying bye bye bye to the sad backs of others
Your face doesn’t show your fighting pose

A world like the one I’ve seen in my dreams
Without conflict, daily peace
But in reality,I sometimes I worry about
Love and the day to day grind
Those Rolling Days!

You would never hold a lie, no never
All my loving, without it, I can’t go on

Sweet love like I’ve seen in my dreams
Lovers searching for hidden faces
But in reality, the days we can’t meet
Continue on, but I believe LONELY DAYS
Even if you stumble, WAY TO GO, YEAH YAY
A muddled rolling star!

=YUI, Rolling Star=

I’m consoling myself very much with songs. Cos the stress of exams are really getting to me.

Every single year since I entered A Levels, the May-June month is a crazy month. Sighs.

I don’t function like a human being. I sleep at really freaky hours and get up at insane times of the day.

I eat like a glutton and the amount of coffee I consume far surpasses the amount a normal human being can take.

I hoard chocolates and sweetmeats to my table and munch while I flip through the books.

That’s why sometimes you’ll see stains on my books. Dripping chocolate.

My sense of fashion takes itself down the drain cos I pick out the most comfortable and most convenient thing to wear. Namely a big t-shirt and a pair of snug jeans.

My room’s a mess with papers strewn on the floor and the table.

My bed’s also in a mess cos I crawl back into the bed when I take some much needed sleep.

Oh and did I mention im most likely always grouchy and grumpy whenever exams are near?

That’s why I’m MIA most of the time from anything during this period.

You wouldn’t wanna feel the lash of my acerbic tongue at this point of time.

And as a total contradiction, I’m at my quietest at this period of time.

Except for the occasional yells of frustration when I cant seem to understand freaking  Constitutional and Equity.

Bwargh. Don’t like exams. Don’t like me during exams. Don’t like anything during exams.

Bwargh. End of venting.

Nota Bana : Can i also say that being a guy means you don't get looked down upon and do not face discrimination from your own parents ;)

Back to freaking WC again.ta!

I believe i'm gonna say something quite radical here. But do pardon me. ;) The thoughts in my head can't be controlled at this point of time due to the lack of sleep, caffeine and heartache.

Sometimes I wish I was born a guy. Then I wouldn't have to endure so much. Not the emotional torture. Not the pain of heartache. Not the pain of rejection. Not the pain of anything thats remotely connected to emotions and feelings.

Because as a guy, I will just accept the situation and take it in my stride with common sense and logic and let it pass.

But of course, no matter how much i wish and hope, I can never be a guy.

So i am stuck with being a girl and all that it entails.

Hide me now, under Your wings;
Cover me within Your Mighty Hands.

When the oceans rise and thunders roar;
I will soar with You above the storm.
Father, You are King over the floods;
I will be still and know You are God.

Find rest, my soul; in Christ alone.
Know His power, in quietness and trust.

Adieu. Back to writing on Democracy again.

Date : 22nd April 2007

Achievement : My first line for my Constitutional and Admin Writing Credit Essay.     

                       *woot woot*

                        Goodbye to brain clogs!

Lovealwis,me!

It just makes her laugh to read the statements that he makes to the public.

Very "applaudable" and very definitely "inspiring".

Yet the question that permeates her being is..

Can he achieve it?

He wants to achieve millions by the time he's 30.

He wants to own a bungalow on the prestigious Kenny Hills.

He wants to have a great family of 3 with a gorgeous wife that all his associates will exclaim over with 2 adorably perfect kids to boot.

He wants to be a partner in "reknowned" firm. His exact word.

He wants to qualify as a "baristor", again his exact word, in the UK.

He wants to enter into Manchester Uni.

He wants 4A's in A-Levels.

And she laughs anew again.

And its not filled with cynical bitterness.

Merely a mirthless laughter on the idealistic tendencies of a youth who can't even spell barrister and renowned right.

And yet the laughter slowly dies a silent death as she realises that at a certain idealistic and unblemished point of her youth,she did aspire to be some of the above.

But look where she is now.

I've got weird friends.I present to you, Terence Toh Chee Kit.

5. Every land lecture, when my teacher prattles on about easements, I smile when she mentions ‘dominant’ and ‘servient’ land, because it gives me mental images of large pieces of earth going S&M on each other.

4. Everytime I look at little toddlers, I have to fight temptation not to beat them up for being so darn cute

If that's not enough to send every girl and toddler running, perhaps this will.

Sorry Teg, hehe. Couldnt resist. :) Law does that to a person.

Oh and so does exams!

And i couldnt reli print this pic out in all its glory,let you autograph it and be so selfish as to admire it myself rite? So i opted for this instead. XD

At my brother's request. He says that he's handsome and he wants the whole wide world to know. ;)

My 2 leng chai brothers, Dan Wai Wai and Jeff Fai Fai

And of course, the very "leng" me ;)

cheerios.

luvalwis,one happy geek for following months.